Sunday, May 12, 2019

Surviving the First Trimester

Y'all. 

We did it! 

We survived the first trimester! 

I honestly don't know how we made it this far. There was a lot of love and support from Zach, easy days with the pups, plenty of naps, and as much as I hate to say it... prescription drugs for nausea. 

Here's a look back at weeks 1-14, showing what all we did and how we made it!

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Our  story isn't exactly the same as everyone else, so our "moment of conception" was sitting in the Utah Fertility Center procedure room in Pleasant Grove, Utah. Our sweet little embryo was even hatching as she was implanted! It was such an amazing day. 


We had to wait TWO WHOLE WEEKS to see if everything we had sacrificed paid off! Actually, that's a lie. As most of you know, I'm not a patient person, so I started testing a few days later. I knew that it wasn't always a guarantee and so many things could happen, but I honestly couldn't bear to hear anything different than "you're pregnant!". We had our transfer on Tuesday - I took the top test on Saturday and the bottom on Monday. 



We got the results two weeks later after our blood beta test on a Friday afternoon... we're pregnant! 


Our levels were looking good, so our RE scheduled a second beta test a week later. Results were perfect! 


We had an ultrasound a few weeks later, and just look at that little one! She had an impressive HR and looked amazing. :) We were over the moon! 


Two weeks later, we had our last appointment at Utah Fertility Center and we graduated! Our little gummy bear looked perfect, and we were shipped off to our OB for regular prenatal care. We miss this office still - everyone was always so informative, patient, and just the sweetest! Before we left we signed the tree - once our girl gets old enough we'll take her back and show her her name! 


*This is also when my morning sickness became absolutely terrible. Up until this, I had tried Unisom+B6, preggo pops, ginger candies, sea bands... and absolutely nothing helped. My OB then prescribed something a little stronger and safe for the first trimester, which seemed to help... for a few weeks! 

I was able to stop my PIO shots (yes! but ow) once I hit 12 weeks - which I was on for 13 weeks, and my butt still hurts from all those! 


I couldn't wait any longer. We've known since December the gender of our embryos and it was getting increasingly difficult to hide it! 

YAYYYY - A GIRL! 


We had our first appointment with our OB, and I'm so glad that we chose the doctor we did! She's absolutely the best and is always listening to our problems and concerns. I still didn't look pregnant, but I sure felt it! 

The exhaustion was real, morning sickness wasn't going away, and food aversions kept piling up. I still can't eat In-N-Out (boo!) but I'll always be willing to eat a jar of Mt. Olive pickles! 


*Around 12 weeks, my nausea grew increasingly worse, so my nurse was able to prescribe better medications to help function since I was almost at the end of my first trimester. I was constantly on prescription medication to control it - and I still am! Morning sickness doesn't go away once you hit your second trimester apparently, which I've found out the hard way. 

Happy 13 weeks! Here we are in Moab, Utah at Arches National Park! She decided she'd like to pop out over our weekend away, which was fine with me - finally - I looked pregnant and not just bloated. 


Hello, second trimester! We're so glad to see you! We still love our naps, and are exhausted after we climb steps or vacuum the living room, but hey - we'll get any kind of energy spurts we can! 

After being so immobile during the first trimester, it's a welcome surprise to not only WANT to do stuff like clean and organize, but finally be able to! 



Survival Tips:
  • Don't be afraid to call your OB/nurse and let them know what's going on - whether it's about a weird cramp or severe nausea, that's what they are there for. They would so much rather you call for something you think as "silly" than to not call at all. 
  • Know what makes you feel better - whether it's apple sauce, rice, sourdough toast - keep stock in it and don't ever run out! When there's only a few things you can stand to stomach, don't be afraid to eat them morning, noon, and night. You need those calories! 
  • Try everything your doctor suggests - whether it's Unisom+B6 for nausea, magnesium for leg cramps, an ice cap for headaches, or drinking plenty of water when you can't even stomach it... it's for a good reason! You have to remember your body isn't yours anymore and sometimes their suggestions really do work! 
Happy Mother's Day, everyone! 

Enjoy your day! 
Kelly

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Nursery Inspiration

Since we're getting closer to the halfway mark of this pregnancy (WHAT!?), I thought I would do a nursery inspiration blog post to show you what we're thinking of creating. 

We didn't want a whole bunch of pink, sparkly, "princess" type stuff, and seeing that we live in one of the most beautiful spots in the US, we're focusing on adventure + mountains. 

In case you haven't been following us too closely, we love hiking, camping, off roading, and going up into the canyons whether its for a hike or breath of fresh air. 

Her room is already grey, with one grey striped wall, so we would like to focus on the softer pinks and teals. Since we want the room to grow with her, we're getting quality white (I know, the cleaning and the messes, but I hate dark furniture!) furniture and will attempt to keep the room appropriate for her age. 

And no - her name isn't in any of these photos! ;) 








What do you think? Any suggestions? 

Enjoy! 
Kelly

Sunday, April 14, 2019

Sunday Bumpin'

Growing a tiny human is hard work, y'all. 

This girl has me feeling like I'm almost in my 3rd trimester when I just hit 13 weeks! 


I'm not going to lie and say that the first trimester has been a wonderful experience - now, it has in some ways, but I honestly didn't think I could get so sick from one tiny little human being. 

She loves napping (all.the.time) and pickles (mt olive only, of course). 
She hates the smell of meat (especially in-n-out... I can hardly go to Target anymore!). 

She's as big as a lemon (and loves frosted lemonades from Chick-fil-A). 
She's almost 3" long and weighs in around .80 ounces. 

Every time we've seen her on the ultrasound (we've had 5 now), she's the wiggliest little girl I've ever seen. 


We're currently working on baby registries (thank you, babylist) and I've recently learned that maternity jeans and maternity leggings are my best friends. While the hairband trick worked, it was anything but comfortable (goodbye, cute ripped skinny jeans). 

I'm learning to love the skin I'm in, because I've been so blessed to be able to carry this little miracle. She has no idea how incredibly loved she is, by everyone! 


I'm savoring every moment I can.
Learning from those who I've followed in their footsteps. 
Creating memories that not every one would have. 

Here's to another week, and to the second trimester! 

Thursday, December 27, 2018

2018: the year of the dog

2018 was a blur. 

january: sick with the flu; enjoyed all the snow
february: sick again with bronchitis; found out we were expecting on president's day
march: all is well; enjoyed the weather warming up; was constantly exhausted
april: lost our sweet boy at the end of the month; had a d+c
may: vacation in vegas; found out about my chromosomal translocation; celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary
june: decided to proceed with IVF; met with fertility clinics; had my 33rd birthday
july: testing for my RE (reproductive endocrinologist); celebrated july 4th on our roof :) 
august: start birth control pills for IVF cycle #1
september: first IVF cycle completed - 7 eggs retrieved, 3 matured, 1 embryo made it to day 5, abnormal PGS testing; celebrated zack's birthday
october: start birth control pills again; mourn our sweet boys "would be" due date; quick trip to vegas
november: second IVF cycle completed - 14 eggs retrieved, 14 matured, 7 embryos made it to day 5
december: PGS testing results came back - 2 normal embryos made it through the hunger games; scheduled our FET (frozen embryo transfer) for the end of january. 

...wow.

we've learned a lot about who we are and how strong we can be in times of crisis. 

there's nothing more i wanted this christmas than to have that sweet boy in our arms, but i'm so glad that we were able to find out what was causing our infertility and what we could do to prevent it. 

IVF has been difficult, but so, so, so worth it. 

thank you to all those who have reached out to us, asking us how we're doing or asking for updates on our journey. we've learned a lot about the people we have around us, some amazing, some not so amazing - and that's okay. 

my goal in 2019 is to revive this blog and what it stands for: making every moment matter and how we can always enjoy the little things in life. 

here's to a happy christmas, and a happy new year! 

cheers, 
kelly

Friday, October 12, 2018

trusting the wait

i find myself wondering (and googling) about how i should really be feeling about this last month. eager? hopeful? confident? overwhelmed? we knew coming into the world of infertility that nothing is promised to you. no matter how much money you spend, how many shots you give yourself, how many appointments you attend - you're not guaranteed that you'll see success in this incredibly unfair journey.

it's terrifying. it's sad. it's even hopeful (on the good days). you never what to expect or how you're going to feel - it's almost as if something else is control your body and you're along for the ride because you want this more than anything.

65 days of prepping myself for an egg retrieval.
57 days of birth control pills. 
51 shots. 
18 appointments, ultrasounds, blood draws. 

and out of that comes
3 mature eggs
 2 fertilized embryos
1 embryo sent for genetic testing
 and 0 embryos that came back as normal.

cue heart break

to say that i’m upset or disappointed isn’t even the case right now. sure, those are good words to describe our first failed IVF cycle, but it doesn’t even come close as to how disheartened we are.

i'm so incredibly sad and it's okay to feel that way, i know. it also doesn't help that this is the time that i would be due with the little one we lost in April. my heart is grieving for both of those experiences that unfortunately i've been dealt with, and i just don't know how to be happy and stress-free right now.

i appreciate my husband more than anything in this world for how he's handling me and this situation. he always tries to see the positive in things and is excited for the start of another IVF cycle to see what will come out of it. albeit, i am too, but i still can't help but think - really? more waiting? 

we'll continue on with our days, working and enjoying each other (and the dogs). i'll be crocheting, zack will be working on his jeep. we'll see movies and eat junk food, because why not? we'll continue to trust the wait, because right now, it's the only thing we can do.

cheers,
kelly

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

the time has come

for someone who is dealing with infertility, every single day is a struggle. whether it's seeing a pregnant woman in target or watching babies babble on tv or hearing a million questions that inquiring toddler minds want to know... it's a constant struggle.


i know, i know... people have been inquiring about when we would actually have a (human) baby for the last 7 years that we've been married. was it annoying? yes! but i understood why they were asking and never took offense to it simply because it was always for the right reasons. 

well... if you haven't been following us too closely, we're currently undergoing IVF treatments. those closest to us are aware and have been wonderful in giving us their love and support. we're going to be really open about this process because it's completely new to us (and many of our family and friends). some won't understand why we're sharing what we are, but we believe that the more support we have... the better. 


this isn't an easy process, and quite frankly, we knew that it never would be. BUT! we're thinking positive and doing the best that we can, but there are times where my emotions get the best of me.

yes, i get emotional. 

no, i don't want to know about how fertile you are. sorry, not sorry.

yes, i'd love for you to pray for us and keep us in your thoughts. 

no, i don't want to hear about your sister's second cousin who "couldn't get pregnant" but now has 5 kids. 


we're not asking for twins. we're not asking for 5 kids. we're not asking for anything unreasonable

you know what we ARE asking for? a chance. a miracle. just one strong, healthy little embryo.  

a little humor, because we all need more in our lives!

so, at this point, friends... we need your thoughts, your prayers... because simply, we need all the good juju we can get.

if you want to ask us how it's going, please don't hesitate to ask! we're always willing to be open and communicative with those who are genuinely interested. but if there are days that i'm quiet or withdrawn... i'm struggling. and that's okay. 

we thank you for your support and will be eternally grateful for your love. 

kelly  + zack

Friday, March 3, 2017

cross country drive, part 3 - we're home!

the remainder of our trip was spent in new mexico, arizona, and finally... utah! the views were absolutely beautiful so i honestly didn't mind the remainder of the drive.

alice spent the majority of the trip barking at other cars, sleeping, and reminding mia with a stern talking to that 3/4 of the backseat was hers (poor mia!).



we stayed at route 66 RV resort in albuquerque, new mexico and it was AMAZING! it was a brand new facility with a wonderful dog park that was close to our site - which we were so grateful for!



dinner at the buffet in the casino was delicious...


but we ended our night with a dr pepper by the fire!


on the way to flagstaff with my trusty co-pilot!




driving into arizona, we stopped in winslow at the remembrance garden (where they had steel beams from the world trade center) and a part of route 66.






the lone road to the meteor crater!









and finally... we made it to flagstaff where we stayed at the canyon motel and rv park. we had such an amazing time at this cute little campground!



the very next day we made a trip into sedona. absolutely beautiful! 
















we started our trip into the grand canyon the next day but first stopped for some amazing freshly cooked cheeseburgers!
















the next morning we had an amazing breakfast at old smokey's restaurant in williams, arizona. we relaxed for the majority of the day - did some laundry, some exploring with the pups, and of course... getting ready for our maiden journey into utah!







finally - we made it! our new home state!




once we finally made it into salt lake, we stayed at the koa. it was such a nice, refreshing opportunity to settle down for a few days! the girls were excited that they would be out of the car, and we were excited that we finally made it to our new home. 

we found some good restaurants - tacos, chicken and waffles, in-n-out... and also picked up some necessities for the new house! :)




moving in was such a blur! all i could do was stare at my hardwood floors and beautiful granite countertops.

we had a nice fire outside and the pups were able to enjoy roaming their new backyard!



from selling our home to moving into a house 2500 miles away from everything i've ever known... it has been such a wild ride, friends. and i wouldn't trade it for the world! 

we're absolutely loving utah and cannot wait to continue to explore this beautiful state. 

be well, 
kelly

Surviving the First Trimester

Y'all.  We did it!  We survived the first trimester!  I honestly don't know how we made it this far. There was a lot o...